"Stop talking bad about my rents, boo hoo"
spending alot of money? More like going on vacation and stopping to see a wedding while down there.

This is exactly what I mean though, seems family isn't alowed to be happy for me cause of finanitial reasons. I'm not stupid, I know the risks. If you want to believe it or not, things are looking very good.

"Do you ever look ahead?"

of course I do, an have been.

But, not that it matters, your probably reading this and just laughing cause your brother doesn't know anything about life. He's just clueless to everything, just a friggen idiot with no hope in the world.

And people wonder why I don't call home often...sorry if I'm sick of hearing about how I need a new job and that I need to start planning for the future. Sorry if I'm getting kinda tired of hearing about how I'm not good enough.

Ah well I suppose. Life's just a big sob story from me right?

Nah, I'm enjoying life right now to be honest...few things bug me, but whatever.

well, meh...be pissed at me, whine, complain, don't hear my point. lol...whatever. The fact you "rubbed my face" in the fact that the rents are forking out alot of cash to come to my wedding (or go on vacation, however you look at it) makes my point for me. If they are so worried about it, they can skip the stop in Texas and head straight to Mexico. Cause we both know they would have vacationed anyway. Gah, whatever...I'm done making people angry at me for one day...time for work.

P.S. $20 says I get a new tag from dad sometime today...
- posted by Kai @ 1/29/2006 04:02:00 a.m. (0) comments

 
oi...
Edited for the fact is was an emotional response...meh...
- posted by Kai @ 1/26/2006 07:14:00 p.m. (0) comments

 
Je nu sais pas...or however you spell it >.>
You know, sometimes I forget that I have friends out there around the world that care, they make me smile. Thank you friends.

"What one man can do, another man can do."

Almost forgot about that for a moment...needed the reminder.


Anywho, its been a few days since the natinal vote so lets recap what happened on monday:
The Conservative Party won a minority in the house of commons. PM Elect Steven Harper and his team are busy building a senate and whatnot.

Former PM Paul Martin, Leader of the Liberals resigned his position Monday night.

and though I'm not too happy about Steven Harper and his marry band of newbs running this great nation, a few things did go well...in fact I would have to say givin how the polls where predicting it, its about the best outcome we could have hoped for.

First of all, although Minority governments are generally just a big waist of time, it means that the Conservative government doesn't have too much power...they will have to work with the other partys to get things done, and from what I'm seeing, it might work...I dunno

but the real good news is the Bloc getting shafted out of alot of a bunch of seats (Woot! Take that you nation hating bloc quelosers!) anywho, the NDP also did quite well, I'm happy to see Jack and his gang being able to pull the party from under the feet of the other larger partys even if its just a little, and with more seats in the NDP side, maybe we're closer to equal representation which is needed...and, once again...the poor ol Green party is absent from the house all together.

but, Canadians had their say and they said quite loudly to the Liberals to "take a hike".

Well, I suck at writing lol, so I'm going to stop now. Peace.
- posted by Kai @ 1/26/2006 02:55:00 p.m. (0) comments

 
qui vous est cher?
Alot of feelings and emotions have been passing though my mind for a while now.

As many of you may or may not know, I tend to be one who does not express my emotions well...I tend to often retreat here or to my own thoughts when something bothers me or, any number of things really.

I guess the first thing I want to say tonight is, dispite some people's thoughts to the contrary... I LOVE Miss Leigh-Anne Walston with all my heart and soul.

I say this because I get the feeling from a few people I know that they do not think this is the case. If I am wrong I'm sorry. Maybe I should start from what set off this little rant of mine.

Last week I went to visit my good friends Kristy and Shawn. It was fun, played video games, watched a movie..you know, the usual; but at one point in the night as I went over to Kristy's compy to chat a little with Leigh to tell her I should be home kinda soon and whatever...Shawn says, "Why don't you just ignore her?".

Ignore her? huh? What?

Kristy I think was caught a little off guard by the comment herself and added "Would you ignore me?".

Now, needless to say I took great offence to his comment and, truth be told have avoided visiting there for some time now. That compounded by my mother and sister poking fun at MY FUTURE WIFE while I'm sitting right there...I'm sure you can see that this little rant is a long time coming.

I want you all to hear me right now. Any comment directed at Leigh-Anne or a comment made about her is also a comment made to personally attack me as well, and though my nature usualy makes it so I just ignore it and walk away...thats soon going to come to an end.

I would like for you to just take a moment and try to wrap your mind around this for a second. Laigh and I are pushing though a very rough long distance relationship, something that few people will even attempt because is retarded hard and quite frankly I fail to see how it could be done without God's everlasting love and inspiration. Shawn, you see your girlfriend every freeking day, you see her eyes you touch her, she is right there and you know you would never, could never just "ignore" her needs "ignore" the fact that if you wernt there she would miss you, want to talk to you every waking hour, and if you could...I question what love means to you.

My one wish in all this right now...that my folks could just, for one moment in my life stop judging people...judging who I'm with, basing there thoughts about people not on who they are...but how much money they make. Not by how happy they are, but by what status they hold.

I love Patsy Leigh-Anne Walston, she will be my wife in a short time from now, this one thought seems to be my one place of pure joy. My refuge inside my mind when I can't take this would's harshness anymore.

I love her, and for some messed up reason she loves me back...why can't that be good enough for those who clame to care for me? Thats all I need, thats all I ever wanted.

What good is one glove without the other?

I want so much to be with her right now, just...to see her smile, that would make my day. Yeah, I'm gonna hold onto that thought and smile.

take offence to this if you want...I'm sure if you have you haven't even read this far anyway...blast me, tell me I'm way off base...just, before you do...look in a mirror.

qui vous est cher?
who do you love?

Respect the one I love with the same respect you would show me. Place yourself in my shoes for just one moment before you speak, before you breath, remember the one you love...

We are wed, April 8th. I hope you can come. Friends.
- posted by Kai @ 1/24/2006 09:57:00 p.m. (8) comments

 
Welp, back am I
Finally got to spend some time with family, it was good. Though the ongoing feud between my mother and father (mostly my father) and his sister is becomming so childish I just wanted to build a mind control device and make sure everyone knew that John was my dad...o well I guess. All in all though like I said the stay was nice and my folks spoiled me rotten again this year.

Welp, it is now the 1st, and the one thing I wanna say about this is...work is sucking the life out of me. I was in bed at midnight last night so I could be up for work this mourning...thus making time spent with friends, once again, not able to happen.

Speaking of friends, once again that thought of moving back out to the Brockville-Prescott area has come up. Oi. An aspect that doesn't hold much appeal to me for the same reason I really would rather not move to Taxas. I don't have many friends left out here...James has moved away and, well...I never see him anymore. Haven't seen Chris in years now it seems...Chuck still lives in town but since the new girl in his life took him over...oi really all I have left is whoever shows up for the now bi-weekly get-together at Kristy's...if I move, I know that'll be it for my few remaining old friendships...

My friends mean more to me then most people really know. And I suck at keeping long distance friends...just ask Denver or Chris or Greg or any number of people I haven't called in years...so when I think about moving back closer to home...I dunno, it would make things easyer to Leigh and I but oi...sigh...blah

in other news immigration laws suck...alot

P.S. Greg, I love you like a bro...I can't believe your actually coming back home, I'll prolly be married before you see me again, times are a changin...and you BETTER LOOK ME UP YOU NUMBLEFRAGIN!

peace.
- posted by Kai @ 1/01/2006 02:55:00 a.m. (3) comments