its so odd...
so, I recieved a well earned "Woh boy.." from one of the Tiffs I know, unsure as to which one :P

letting go is hard at times, you don't want to let go of something that has made you so happy for so long...that day was hard, but conviction does set in and I remember all too well that Christ does indeed fill that void in my life..not Leigh-Anne, not anything or anyone else....just Him...o glory glory to You my Lord.

I tend to be a very emotional person inside and yet am often stone clad on the outside...I have no idea as to the reason why this is but I wonder for only a breif second if it where something that happened in my past, some sort of emotianal scaring that leaves me not unable to cry ourwardly when there are nothing but tears on the inside...or perhaps I'm overlooking one key thing...that God made me who I am and maybe this has some devine perpose...maybe the absence of tears will help another...maybe it has already...who knows, I just hope and pray that for one day I will do nothing but cry tears of joy....for there shall be no sorrow in this life...for God is here and has FREED ME!!!

I feel like having a party and I don't know why...
as though things are working out for the better and I am starting to see the plan unfold and O GOD its so GOOD!

Do I dare not remember to thank and glorify God for all he has done in me and for me in the past few months? How could I be so bold..I have air to breath and a place to catch my foot while I walk is that not enough to praise God for? And then still He blesses us with every little detail o how WONDEROUS He is...

Love, I have come to understand cannot be truly felt unless God is somewhere in the picture...if He is not its lust and emotion..nothing real...nothing with substance


o.....BUT when God runs the show, when he is the focus when he fules the love heck, HE IS LOVE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! then o my word will you know a romance that is like no other, you will soon see the reason for why there is a "Song of Songs" you will soon see why Love is key, why Ruth was wirtten why...o why we humans just lose ourselves in something that seems a distant memory in this day and age, ah my friends I am in love with the God of all creation, and he has sent me an angil to manifest that love twords....o how sweet it is when God's timing and our waiting meet up in that abiss at last

My friends who walk along the path hear me, you are never alone....you miss your relations with the opposite gender I tell you, I pleade seek not them but seek the Lord! Once you stop seeking that which you think will make you happy, the Lord will bless you with something far more amazing then you where ever looking for....and sometimes it may be that which was right under your nose for so long... :)

I am not worthy, dang am I ever not worthy...the more I think about it the more I am dumbfounded by it...I should be in some gutter awaiting my turn though the gates of hell as a sinner but...it would seem that God thoght it Good to...

Love.

I feel endebted in a way that is not fair....I could say I owe my life to Jesus but truly this life is not worth enough..

All I have is my love to give...

Praise be to Him...One

I adore you Leigh-Anne, my Angel...I'm not worthy.

- posted by Kai @ 1/24/2005 10:44:00 p.m.