ESOAL
TEAM: L
NAME: 255
END TIME: aprox. 7:15PM Sat.

It was hard...I hurd people tell me how hard it was but I didn't know....I didn't know how much they ment by hard. God stretched me, and I was broken...not by the intence phisical aspect, not by the facilitators constantly dragging me and my team down...not by any of that. Yes ESOAL was hard, the hardest thing I have ever done...but the hardest part was leaving ESOAL, telling my team I wouldn't be there for them until the end, passing on the cross, walking up to Mr. Hasz, telling him I was done my ESOAL....ringing the bell knowing my team was still in it, pushing through.

God had something for me during ESOAL, and it was the breaking of my pride...yeah, I could have finished it, I could have gone the entire way I know that but that wasn't the point. The point was to break myself..to walk up in front off everyone and ring the bell and walk away by myself...to lay myself down and not finish.

This is a hard lession to learn, that why ESOAL is so hard...you have no idea what I mean by hard until you go through your own ESOAL but honestly...if i wasn't for team L being so close, we being so unifed as one body to push through I wouldn't have made it that far. If it wasn't for God I would have given up the first night.

Now just after I watch ones that went all the way...just over 100 out of probably a good 500 interns, I'm so proud of them...for pushing through and making it all the way, as I am proud of those who rang the bell knowing that there ESOAL was done and having no regrets.

You guys rock. I love you all. Team L I hold you all very close to my heart, we pushed through guys. Our ESOAL is over thank the Lord.

Grace and Peace to you all this day.
,255
- posted by Kai @ 10/05/2003 02:03:00 p.m.